Hanging on by a Thread
Posted on January 15, 2012 - 8
So ummm, I actually mean to blog a few days ago but honestly, I just didn’t feel up to it. I do feel the urge to blog now, so I am! Plus, I have a few things I want to talk about.
First of all, I started school on Tuesday and I got my new schedule. If you follow me on Twitter, you might have seen that I was really nervous. I’m not sure why but I get nervous whenever I get a new schedule but it happens every time. So yeah, I was nervous but I ended up getting a pretty good schedule! Also some of you may already know that this past semester was TERRIBLE. My classes were extremely difficult and I made my first C in honors world history. This semester, though, I dropped the honors course (I kept honors Spanish and honors lit though) and I like my teachers more. I am so thankful. 
Second thing. Again if you follow me on Twitter, you probably know my family is not in our best stance. This is what pretty much has happened: apparently my mom and dad have been not so close because my dad has not been feeling loved by my mom who has pulled away because she did not feel loved (I had already known this because of my gut feelings, I just knew). So because of this my dad went out with another woman, but luckily nothing romantic happened. My mom ended up catching him the the weirdest way: my brother called my dad about something and my dad “butt answered” and my brother, on the other line, heard another woman. My mom picked up the phone and listened in. Isn’t that kind of random? Huh. I am very thankful she found out because otherwise if she hadn’t, it cold have turned into more than just casual dinner.
The first night I found out about what my dad had done, it was very awkward between me and my dad and it was hard to see my mom cry constantly. She would hyperventilate and just cry and cry and cry. I know everyone cries but it’s hard to see your mom fall apart, ya know? My dad came home and explained everything to me and my brother. Unlike my brother, I forgave my dad right away. People make mistakes and everyone is capable of cheating. It does not make them a bad person, it is just a way of showing their feelings of being unloved. My dad is only human and he is just hurt. He feels unloved and unconnected with our family. He just needs to find a way to open his heart to love again which I hope the counseling and God will help him to do.
I still have this weird gut feeling that this will be the best year ever. I feel like they will work things out and by doing this, their marriage will be fixed and better since their marriage has been a disaster for 10 years. It will change things and it will be amazing. However if divorce comes about, I can handle that too because that is just how it is sometimes…that’s life. It was obviously not meant to last and they will find new partners and therefore, they will be happy.
In the end, everything will be okay. I know it. 
I am glad to hear that you like your schedule for this semester, and that you like your teachers. I wish you the best of luck with all of your courses.
I am sorry to hear about your parents, it seems as if they are having communication problems. I am sure that the counseling and God will help your father to open his heart to love again.
Hopefully everything with work out, Anna.
Hopefully everything will work out, Anna.
I had the same thing with my parents but my mum didn’t find out until it was too late.. They managed to sort things out and stick together even after what my dad had done to my mum. Like you I forgave my dad straight away, my brother doesn’t even know it happened. I’m sure your family will be okay
I just got a new schedule too
I was actually super nervous about mine because I signed up for a web design class that nobody takes, and my school is huge so I was afraid of knowing absolutely no one. The semester started this Tuesday though and so far this week was okay. 
Wow, you’re in honors lit and Spanish and world history? That’s a lot. I’m in honors chem and English this year and I can barely handle that, and I’m only taking English next year.
I’m sorry about your dad and mom. ): I’d feel the same way if it was happening in my family. Hope everything turns out alright!
Oh man, family drama D: I’m glad you forgive your dad, though, and I hope your parents turn out all right! :O I think I sort of understand why your dad had done it, just because he didn’t feel loved, and even though it wasn’t exactly the smart thing to do, it was understandable.
Glad to see you’re looking up ^^
Just randomly came by and found myself read your post.
My parents divorced since they felt it was best for them, they were arranged to be married so of course I thought so too. My dad had cheated on my mom as well and my mom’s suspicions were fed by some fortune tellers and such… It was a weird time for me since it was back in high school.
I understand the uneasiness of parents relationships, you’re lucky it was somewhat resolved
I don’t know why I’m telling you this.. I guess I needed someone who understood what I mean.
Love your blog! Can I just link you? XD I don’t need to be linked back to.
x Chansoriya
I am so sorry.
Family drama is never fun. *bug hugs* How is everything now? Better, I hope!